Chapter 5: What I did remember.

Here is a picture of my result on every Modal Quiz we had today. To be honest with it, I couldn't remember if we had our modal lessons in the past, but I managed to get this very good to excellent mark. But seriously, I can't remember remember such a thing on modals. I may have schema on this, but I have no any memories that I have been taught this that I can't point out what items in the tests that made me confused and I have nothing to say about my knowledge of it. It might be a miracle, but I rather not to say it that it has been made by a miracle. Because, I believe in ability and skill.

Well, I rather say this result, was because of luck.

I don't want to sound humble here. I'm not good in English, a reason for me to not remember if I have taken up this lesson or not. I'm just an experienced student. So, I'm honestly typing my thoughts about modals.

Gamer's Love 2: DJMAX/Beatcraft Cyclon

DJMAX. A game not that popular, but loved by many people. Gone, but not dead, when Pentavision-the game developer of the said game- merged with the studio called GameOn, making DJMAX Technika Q their last rhythm/action game. But then, the franchise of the game was bought by Nurijoy.

Lately I've been playing Beatcraft Cyclon, the descendant of DJMAX Technika and a game that was made by Nurijoy, on Timezone Gateway. As a commemoration of the game I loved, here are my quotes for the game.

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"DJMAX taught us the important lessons about love:
*Everything has a right timing. Don't go rush on things, or go laying low.
*Make sure everything is close to Perfect. One mistake could end up with Break.
*Remember: A song has a start and an end. Relationship does too.
*Set your speed. Make sure that you're not going fast or going slow."

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The first one is based from the mechanics of the game. I admit it. It's kind of corny.

Below are song titles mashed up to become a quote. And forgive me again, because it's too cheesy and corny.

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"Dear my Lady, I Remember The Last Dance we had under the Colours of Sorrow."

"Love is Beautiful, they say. But believe me, Forever doesn't even exist."

"Hello Pinky. I Want You to be my Sweet Shining Shooting Star in our Secret World."

"Right Now I'm having a Sweet Dream in the Melody of our Cosmic Fantastic Lovesong."

"I've always had my Oblivion under The Clear Blue Sky."

"STOP yourself for having your Revenge. Because at the End of the Moonlight, you find yourself Waiting for the Sun."

"In My Heart, I've always wanted to touch your Lovely Hands. And please Stay with Me Here in the Moment."

Chapter 4: No... and never will be... (part 2)

I am a musician. An amateur musician who plays the violin. Music, though, is not in my talents. That's why I'm still an amateur when it comes to this. I could play well.

Because of the rhythm games I played, and anime shows I watched that has too many classical music (such games like, DJMAX [Rest in Pieces], and Bandmaster [Rest in Pieces]; and anime shows like, Nodame Cantabile, and Shigatsu wa Kimi no Uso [Your Lie in April]), I aspired to play different musical instruments. But, when I was still a child, I've always wanted to play the Violin. And I also aspired to become the legendary classical musicians. Like...

 

Ludwig van Beethoven

Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart

Franz Joseph Liszt

They are my personal favorites. They are the one I aspire so much. But... I will never be them. First of all, I'm just an amateur Violin player.

It is a good thing that I aspired for them so much. Because without them, I could've just listened and liked some other sh**ty Pop songs of the west or the Philippines (Where I am.) I'm not pointing at every song, but I'm pointing at those nonsense song that I can see that it's being used for famewhoring. They are countless of good songs here, but there are really sh**ty songs that exist.

It is really essential that I thank them for their contribution to mankind. Because without them, people may have been listening to what I have said former.

Chapter 3: No... and never will be...

We are asked what we want to be, but never will be (hence, the title.) It becomes just only a figment of our imagination. We just tend to imagine what is the feeling of becoming them. But, we have to face the reality that we are not going to be them.

When I was in High School, I read something from an anime magazine about a show where the character use his skill in dating sims (Galges, if you want to call it) to capture or make girls fall in love with him. Why? He just made a contract with a demon. It caught my interest in a single swoop.

I watched it. And as I finish it, I wished that I want to become him. Well, who is he, you ask? From my favorite show, The World God Only Knows, he is Keima Katsuragi.

"I can see the ending."
--Keima Katsuragi.

It was really good that I tried to become him. Because, first of all, I'm a gamer. And I create quotes that I could get from the games that I play (not quotes from characters). The thing is, those games are not dating sims. So I create quotes from random games I play. And I'm a person who is really bad when it comes to terms of love.

I just ended up making quotes from games, not applying them to real life. I tried to apply them in my life, then I failed. So I just face the harsh reality that I will not become him.

But, it was really a good idea that I have liked this character. because of him, I have found another use of games.

"Don’t be upset because of what you can’t do. Do what you do best, live as carefree and optimistically as you can, because some people aren’t able to do that."
--Keima Katsuragi.

Gamer's Love 1: League of Legends

As I said, every week, starting right now, I am going to post some of what I created love quotes (maybe) from the video games that gamers play.

Just to clarify, this are not quotes said by the characters from the game. But, post that I created (and some of it are have been created by others long ago, so I can't claim copyrights there) are merely made by me.

So, here they are! Enjoy.

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"What's is the purpose of my E when you don't like me?"
--Ahri

"Do I need to plant wards just to see you?"

"My heartbeat when I saw you is like my kill streak. It's unstoppable."

"I'm like Teemo. Everybody hates me."

"You're like the Scuttler. Everybody was hitting on you, but you don't still give a f**k."

"I need to jump so high just to fall for you."
--Pantheon

"You cannot stop me from having a Frozen Heart."

"I'm not the same guy you used to know."
--Kha'zix

"You just notice me when my companions are gone."
--Champions to the Turret

"I'm so good at hiding my feelings."
--every single stealthy Champions

"Did you just auto-cast Exhaust? Cause my world slows down when I saw you."

"I'm so bad at using Ashe's ult. Because I still miss you."

"My only R is to be with you."
--Soraka

"My Gnar goes big when enraged."

"I'm good at giving blow jobs."
--Janna

Chapter 2: My childhood crush

Apparently, we are told to type about something with from past. And I have no idea what am I going to write this time. Because, all of the thing that something to do with my past that I could think of are now in here in my blog.

But something had nudged me. Another memory. My childhood crush. But don't think of any person, because my crush is not your regular person. Because, she is a robot. And her name is XJ-9 aka Jenny Wakeman from My Life as a Teenage Robot.

I couldn't remember the exact reason why I have liked her. All that I could remember is that when the show is on, I was sitting in front of the TV and watch it.

But, because our cable was cut short, I'm not able to continue the show. And I almost totally forgot it.

Now, lately, I had remembered this show again because of a (yes, it is really weird) cartoon porn video. Then suddenly, I am so happy that I remember this, and also disgusted because of the method of remembering it.

But then, I am so happy, so I had downloaded it again (not the porn vid, but the series.) And yeah, because I had felt I got in touch with her again. And I am so surprised that it has 3 seasons. And yeah. I am so really happy. Up until now I was smiling from ear to ear because of the show.

And, I remembered that one thing that had impacted on my life since that day. It was liking twin-tailed girls. And when I was watching it, I, kind of, felt sadness when I am not in the midway of the 2nd season. because I don't want to end it and, if so, I had been wanting Nickelodeon to have another run of this show or have a reboot.

But probably not. So, I'm not going to expect a lot from them. So, I'm just going to give my thanks to her, because she, somehow, she had been part of my childhood.

Extra Chapter: Things called fireworks

Fireworks. Sparklies that brighten up the cold and blue night for a brief period of time. When seen, other people look at it with such amazement. Others stared in wonder, thinking "how they made this kind of thing?" It give us fun, and we appreciate it. But, as for me, I don't see the fireworks the same way I did when I was a child.

Every time, as long as there is an announcement that they will be having a fireworks display at a said time, my mother or some of my other companions insist that we must watch it. I, as a child long time ago, feel so happy and we got to watch it, until it finished and we get exhausted and go home. The biggest fireworks display that I have ever seen is in Hong Kong Disneyland. It lasted for about... 30 minutes if I remember it correctly. That day was really special for me. Because I only have not seen that spectacular fireworks, but also it is my first time to go outside of the country.

I still like fireworks, though. But... it is only until after I graduated High School.

Still remember the girl I have mentioned in my "Inside the hood" post? She is the reason why I have disliked fireworks. Don't get me wrong. I watch fireworks, but the thing is... I can't appreciate them anymore, since that event.

Here's how it goes. We had our date together (because I accompanied her to a certain university. She just attended the culminating activities of some program she had joined. After that, you probably have an idea what happened next. And sorry, it had nothing to do with the birds and the bees.) But, the problem is... We don't know what are we going to do in our date. And I remembered something about a competition of fireworks in a mall near that certain university. So, I insisted that we watch it.

Another problem is that she must be home at around 5-6PM, but she broke it. She wanted to watch it with me. And because of it, she had gone home so late. Little did I know that she had been scolded when she got home, a reason for her to stop our relationship (But... she actually included something I find that a lie. I may perhaps post about that too.) Upon knowing that, I became so paranoid, a guy who doesn't want the worst case scenario to happen. I cursed myself of insisting her to watch the fireworks.  No. Please don't... I thought you wanted for our relationship to work out? That's my thought at that time. I'm on the verge of being a depressed guy because of it. Later that night, we had our "final" say of I love you and I started to move on.

After it, those things happened. The after events which I have told in "Inside the hood." (If you haven't read it, I might as well suggest to read it. You may see the connections.)

Until then, I just watch the fireworks, watch the people who really appreciate and likes them. But I myself, I have lost my appreciation. I hated fireworks.

We thought we had our happiness so much we could die. But in truth, happiness last for a brief period of time. Just like fireworks.

How to define sadness?

Sadness. We always feel that. There will be no point in your day where you will not experience or, might as well, feel this kind of emotion. You thought that you are so happy, but deep inside you, is your other self, crying. Why we always feel this?

Have you had any memories? Because you are not human if you don't. Kidding aside, this is one factor that could affect you, that's why you feel like crying. It is either someone close to you died, had a really bad break-up, or perhaps you have suffered from a bad injury (Which, to think of it, not a reason to become sad when you remember it. Instead you go, "Whoo! Look at my scar! This defines my success!") That's why, some people who are so talkative and active, becomes so silent and a bit timid because somebody or something may have triggered the memory switch that have caused to change acts. One example for that is, the well-known: music. If you don't even get that, maybe you should take time to ponder on things.

Another thing is present occurence. Why? Let's just say that you are liking someone. And you could feel special when you are noticed by that person. But, when you witness that person mingle with somebody else, you feel a miner is using his pickaxe to dig his way in. In short, you feel that your heart is being shattered into pieces. Also, when you hear rumors. You, don't even deny it, can't help but to think those rumors are true. That's why some person thinks of anything rash, without properly asking for the truth from the person involved, which is the person you like. That's why we end up achieving nothing.

Another thing is, but not really, having your self-esteem be lowered. But, I will not elaborate thing about this. So, take another time to ponder on this if you also not get my point.

What is the purpose of writing this? Nonsense? Nope. The purpose of this is to spread some positivity. Because, it is okay to be sad, but not overly sad. Just take a little time to be sad. Because if you overdo it, You will not see all the positivity that is all around you. Surrounding you. You cannot even appreciate them.

Just FEED.  Face, Erase, Evolve, and have Determination.
Face all of your fears.
Erase all of your bad memories.
Evovle into a new person. And;
Determination is your best weapon.

Almost forgot, don't forget to smile. Because, in just one smile, you are one problem less.

Spread the positivity! Good night.

Extra Chapter: (insert title here.)

So... as what I have posted yesterday, I was about to post here my story. But, the thing is... I cannot post here, on this blog of mine, that story. Asking why? I have conducted some sort of search in the settings about copyrights. But sadly, I encountered none of it. So, to avoid copyright issues, I'll be posting my story to Wattpad (I just hesitated to use this site for uploading. It's because I don't want my story to be published by a company who started to make books which is so entertaining, but now ended up as a book publisher of stories which its primary targets are gangster-wannabes, or in the Philippines we call it: "Jejemons.") or any other story uploading sites. And post the link here. How about that?

Oh, if you could, my dear readers, please help me find a good sites where I could upload it other than Wattpad. Thank you.

Now, to my main reason why I am typing right now. There's a purpose why this post is entitled like that. Because, my WIP (Work-in-Progress) story haven't yet got a title. Well, yeah... It's a good reason to point out that it is still WIP, and truth to be told, I have only written three chapters, aside from the prologue. I have still a long way to go.

Here is the synopsis of it (Please to tell you, my dear readers, that this synopsis is just made up and it's not yet final.):

"I'm just a mere stranger who cares for you."

Due to a heavy heartbreak of his past relationship, Firancs Lorunes is suffering from a deep depression. To make it even worse, their memories kept on appearing in his dreams.
But, the observant yet unobtrusive classmate, Lenalie Friscater, noticed him. She wanted to help him. Help him not to be a philophobic person.

This plan of hers... will it be a success? Or a failure?

There you have it! Well? I don't know you guys if you'll find this story of mine interesting. Either way, I'm going to tell it again: I write to express, not to impress.

I didn't include the last line. It is because I dedicate this to a certain yet special person for me. I'm not going to mention her here, so... I'm going to leave it to your imaginations now, my dear readers (Ha-ha)

Also, it's because this is a fiction, based on reality.

Again, This is The Unknown Novelwriter. See you tomorrow in the next post! Good Morning/Night, wherever you are.

Extra Chapter: Just some random things.

As what I feel right now, some of my visitors here in my blog thought that I will be posting some stories. Here's my answer: Yes, occasionally. But, the thing is... my blog is not designed to be posted with stories that I have created. This is created for my activities in school, extracurricular activities, and things, I wanted to share with my visitors (even thought I don't know them) that I don't post on my social media accounts. I post here like as what I am, as a person. Thus my name: The Unknown Novelwriter.

But, I am still going to try to post some of my self created stories. Who knows? I might post here the love story I am currently writing.

Moving on. Right now, I can't think of anything to post in here. Am I going to rant? Write a review about the things I have watched, played, or read? Or just some ordinary post? Well, I think of one purpose right now: that is that I have announced about what my blog really is. And yeah, I might post here also some of quotes that pops out in my mind. I am going to list all of it, and at the end of the week, I'll post it here.

And yeah... I am so out of word to type right now. I can't think of anything to type in here, really.

I'll be back tomorrow for another post.